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THE DECISION OF GOING BACK TO DUMAGUETE IS FINAL. (wow...i can't believe i'm running now) OR NOT. I COULD CALL IT RUNNING OR TO MAKE IT MORE SAFE FOR MY NAME...I CALL IT, SAVING THE REST OF MY LIFE. HAHA! IT'S REALLY KILLING ME. YAH...MY FRIENDS WILL SURELY ASK ME WHY I MADE SUCH DECISION TO STOW-AWAY AND FLEE TO CEBU AND INDEPENDENTLY FACE A WORLD OF MONSTERS, TOO MUCH RAIN, AND CANDY CANES . I VOWED TO DEFEAT BEING A PRISONER FROM MY dictator MOM AND GET A HOLD OF MY FREEDOM...TRAPPED IN A STINKING JAR(that's how I thought it was).

BUT NOW, EVERYTHING JUST TURNED AROUND. I HAD TO GO BACK. IT WAS PROBABLY A WRONG CHOICE TO BREAK OFF HOUSE RULES BUT I SHOULD NOT DENY THIS...I LEARNED. :) WHAT I HAVE IN MIND NOW IS, I NEED MY OLD SIMPLE LIFE BACK. I'M NOT READY. MY TEAM AND SUPERVISOR EVEN SAID "YOU'RE SO YOUNG..."(another safe one. ME again on the lime light. :) BUT NOBODY'S 'YOUNG' WHEN IT COMES TO PURPOSE. I BELIEVE EVERYTHING HAPPENED ON PURPOSE.

GOD ALLOWED ME TO ENTER INTO SUCH GAMBLE AND LEARN THAT I'LL NEED MORE ACES TO WIN IT(am i getting this right?). HE MADE ME REALIZE HOW HARD IT IS TO RUN WAY FROM YOUR PROBLEMS AND FIND OUT YOU'LL NEVER BE ABLE TO FIX IT EVEN W/ YOUR NEW ENVIRONMENT. THAT'S WHY I PLAN TO GET THIS ALL DONE AND JUST GO HOME...REST, FIND ANOTHER JOB, AND FINISH SCHOOL.

BEHIND THIS ENTRY IS MY OLD DAYS AND HOW I MANAGED TO ESCAPE. EVEN THE SECOND PLACE I RAN INTO IS NOT SAFE. SO, I GUESS MY ADVENTURE IN CEBU IS DONE;THOUGH IT WAS NOT ENTIRELY A NIGHTMARE...(kat2 was w/ me the whole time...one thing I HAVE TO BE THANKFUL FOR.)
IT'S TRUE, THIS MIGHT SOUND OLD SCHOOL BUT "LIFE IS WHAT WE MAKE IT." IT ALL MATTERS ON OUR CHOICES.

ANOTHER WAY TO MAKE ME REALIZE...TWICE.

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